Last Saturday as me, Danielle, and Joie were stuffing easter eggs we decided to use coupons to Suntan city to go and get spray tans and lay. It was a spur of the moment thing. We even asked Pam if she wanted to go. She didn't want to BUT we offered. It wasn't that we excluded anyone. It was simply something that we wanted to do and so we did it. We called David Lee to see if he wanted to go with us. We were not going to be spiteful and hateful to anyone... Fast forward a couple of days.
Today my sister Lorie is mad because we didn't invite her to go. She wants to claim that she always gets left out. Well, the truth of the matter is that the reason she is left out because she doesn't come around. I know for a fact that she knew that we were stuffing easter eggs on the date that we were and she did not come. Now, I am the bad guy because I did not go out of my way to invite her.
Well, if you want my take here it is. I do not care if you don't agree with me. I am entitled to my opinion.
I have traveled a long LONG road regarding dad and his family. I didn't even think that me returning to the family would cause this drama. But all of a sudden I went from feeling as though I only had one support system (my mom and her amazing family) to two. Suddenly I had picnics and cookouts, weddings and birthdays, baptisms and sadly funerals to go to from my dad's side. AND I love every minute of it. God is faithful to give us the desires of our heart. Even when we do not know what those desires are. He has revealed to me that my desires are to be the best daughter, sister, aunt, etc. etc. that I can be. But another desire of my heart is to have no drama. To be content with who I am. To make no apologies when I do nothing wrong. That is a desire I have. Because at the end of the day the persons that I have to make happy are me and God.
So I have done NOTHING wrong. I have not purposely excluded anyone from anything. If IO wanted to I could have but I didn't. I am not at fault here. Excuse me for having a life. Excuse me for refusing to compromise in what I believe. And get over it.
So, Lorie, I am sorry if my actions have hurt you. That was never my intention. But do not sit on your couch running your mouth about me and more IMPORTANTLY my family. If me and Joie and Danielle want to tan then we are going to. If we WANT to go somewhere together we are going to. Do not patronize or victimize yourself. I never saw in the rule book where I had to have all my sisters together to do something. Never. I mean if that were the case then I would not know any of you because you are never EVER at dad's when I go to visit. I cannot live my life to please you. And if that upsets you, I am sorry. But I have to live my life. I cannot sit around waiting for it to be convenient for everyone to spend time with my family. Because at the end of the day, we all know the truth. We all know that you are playing the victim here because you can. And then, you want to run your mouth on facebook. Facebook is not the place for it. If you have unresolved issues then be the bigger person and message me instead of letting the whole world see it. It is ridiculous that you want to get other people involved in this drama that you have created. And, I am NOT falling prey to it. So, if you hate me, hate me. It's no skin off of my nose. As a matter of fact I think I have lived 21 years of my life without you and I think that living the rest of it that way will not be a stretch. But, I feel sorry for you. Sorry that you will not get to know me as the sincere and genuine person that I am, sorry that when the time comes you will not get to see your nieces and nephews that me and Cody have, sorry that you won't be there for day to day. But you have made your choice and I will not allow you to bring your DRAMA into my life... I love you sis but I will not go down this road with you.
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