I keep thinking this. I keep chanting it. When life becomes unbearable, when the waves toss me about. Another Day Stronger. Another Day Stronger. Another Day Stronger.
That is all that I can think about today! I was doing well and one off the wall comment ruined it all. People are so manipulative. So ready to lie in order to have attention. So why would it surprise me? Why would I even believe a word out of their mouths? Because I internalize everything. I am an eternal pessimist. Even though I have been reassured that I have nothing to fear, even though I know that liars never get ahead. That fear consumes me at times. I don't know why I have such a thin skin but I do. I mean, I think that I have never been really good at hiding something that is bothering me. Maybe that is why I should never be a lawyer, poker player, or anything else. I work myself up. And for what?! To relax? Somehow that doesn't make sense.
So rather than that I have been busy scheduling appointments, cleaning, and cooking. Maybe even finding a second to squeeze schoolwork in here and there.
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