Today.

So, I got a phone call today. Then a text message. And Finally an email. It is hard to believe that I have learned about three crazy different issues within a half an hour this morning. All of which surprisingly brought me to the edge of being furious. Sometimes that old saying of God never gives you more than you can handle crosses my mind.Who says that? Who says that God doesnt give you far more than you can handle to encourage you to trust in Him? Your support system he gave you??? Who says that he gives you things to show you you arent alone? Because I have a feeling some of the situations I have found myself in as of late have caused God to laugh. Laugh hard.

And yet I have to remember that he has only plans for me to prosper and that sometimes in order to prosper he has to prune the evil stuff away. That's hard. Really hard. Because sometimes the evil stuff is the only thing that I have to hold onto. Thats sad. That I even make that statement because I know its not true. I know that there is more than just evil in my life. And yet. That is the lie that I have bought into at times! If everything was fine all the time how would God reveal himself to us? How would we know he was with us. I dont think that we would be able to see that.

So, changing gears here. When we went to Cody's Grandmothers funeral the other week his mom and I made a memorial side show. It had music and allot of pictures of her life. Now I know that this sounds silly but I have decided that I am going to make one for my Papaw and Grandpa.Yes, Papaw has been dead for over 15 years and Grandpa Ray for over 8 but if I don't do this who will? When it comes time to show my children why hershy's kisses make me think back, why I want them to spend time with their grandparents how can I tell them? Will I still remember the Tis So Sweet to Trust in Jesus hymn that was sang at his funeral? Will I be able to tell them how Grandpa Ray loved big 8's or how he drove an El Camino.... WILL THEY EVEN KNOW WHAT AN EL CAMINO IS? I want them to know about their great grand parents. I want them to see what they looked like, they worked hard for, and their personalities. So, I am making these dvds. Come hell or high water. Come offensive remarks or not. This is my decision.