Through

I do not think that I have ever reached this level before. I thought that I had it all right. A person that would love me for me. A person that would see past my flaws. That would understand where I am coming from. A person that would want to travel this journey with me because I am an amazing person. Somedays, including today, I think that I have gotten this all wrong. My life has been a series of mistakes. Of choices I made too quickly. I should look back and think I got this all so right but after today and yesterday I can only think of the wrong. No, this is not a fit of anger or indecision. this is me realizing that I need to change. I need to stay only with those who care for me enough to help correct my mistakes. I need to live me own life and stop being someone elses Robot. My God how I am sick of being someone elses Robot. That person is influencing me way too much. Making me do things that I have never wanted to do. Making me be selfish, unhelpful and downright mean. Something has to change. And that something is not me. So, I have a semester left here in Brcc. Thats it. I think that it is time for me to make some decisions. To break free from some shakles. These chains are not even ones that I have made. They are ones that they have made to ensnare me. I have to decide whether to stay under those or get out of them.