Forget you

Today= a song that I can dance to. Thank Goodness for Just Dance two. This is the song that I can really do okay in the game. I guess that white girls don't have rhythm or something. That would explain allot. I have always wanted to be able to dance. Guess that is one talent that did not receive from either of my parents. I mean the most I can dance on my own is maybe the funky chicken (if I am with people I feel okay with. Maybe I will play Just Dance today. That could be something fun to do while I am home alone once again.

They weren't lying when they said this profession is the hardest job you'll ever love. So, I am off to another wonderful day here at the Main Household.

this says it fricken all...

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Oh the songs we listen to when we are young. =)

So, Today's challenge was a hard one. It was to find a song that I know all the lyrics to. I was thinking about this and I really think that the first song that I remember knowing all the lyrics to. As a matter of fact I had this song on tape. That's right. I had it on tape. And I rewound it a million times. So much that mom had to buy me another copy. Man. Those were the days.

So, not many specific memories regarding this song. Just a strange obsession with it. I think that whenever we went anywhere I brought that tape with me as well. =) Brooks and Dunn were the first music that I ever loved...Thank goodness they are not the only music I ever loved! All jokes aside they are great. Although I am not sure if they are still together. I mean I know that they had a farewell tour and then maybe a second one?!? I would love to go see them in concert someday but tickets are extremely expensive.

How Do You Save A Life?

Day Six: A song that reminds you of somewhere.

This one was easy. I didn't even think much of it. The Fray's How to Save a Life.

Everyone knows what phase of my life this reminds me of. But I have to say not everyone knows the whole story. I think that the time of my life spend in E.M.S. taught me allot of things. But, the one lesson that I did not like is that you cannot trust anyone. I never thought that life would be like that. I guess that shows how naive I was back then. This was my first real interaction though with the adult world and I thought I had it all figured out...

It took me a long, long time to realize that people are not like that if they are normal. The problem with EMS is that there are too many clashing egos. Too many people that only care for themselves. I hate it. When people think that because they have an associates degree in some medical field then they know it all. That they think that they can manipulate others simply with promises of things that they can never deliver. They think that because their mother or father was someone that they automatically get respect.

It sickens me. Excuse me if I seem to ramble more today. I'm not completely myself.

Just thought i would share a moment from this afternoon =)

Love Stories and Day 5

The problem with untold love stories is that they are often tragic ones. Strike that always tragic ones. You know the ones that don't work out. Sometime Pocahontas can't save John Smith or Beauty can't always get to the Beast before it's too late. Divorce, death, and feelings are all things that play into these stories. Stories full of hurt and pain. Stories that after one finally does find what is so right as far as love goes fade into the background and remind them of how lucky they are. That doesn't mean they never regret things that they said or did. It just simply means you have to focus on your future. Today's challenge though hit home with the Thirty Day Song challenge on facebook and it pulled me back to my untold love story. So, this is the song that I choose for day 5:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xKCek6_dB0M

It's so hard. To look back on this but somehow this song challenge is making me realize just how important the past is. The past is the foundation that the present is built upon. I think today I have also realized that a love story doesn't have to be about someone that you are romantically involved with. It can be a friend, a child, a loved one. Love stories can even be written after that person is gone. I think that reading about Maddie and her family has taught me that. Taught me that my lost love story is not that tragic because at least it was a story. A story that I can harness and use for good. A story that shows that I not only lived my time on this earth but I touched others. As long as I can do that I think that there is hope for me yet. Redemption is not a word that I like to throw around but looking back every mistake I made had a redeeming quality. I might not have seen it then but now I understand. The redeeming quality was that I found my path. I have a future. And I have that past to thank to some degree.

So I think that I am going to blog every day about one of the songs that I choose.

Back roads, horror movies.

Does anyone else know where Earlysville, Virginia is? After my adventure today I can honestly say I never plan on returning. If you have ever seen the movie wrong turn my Earlysville experience mimicked it. My GPS didnt work. Chock another thing up to the amazing Verizon Wireless. Then, there are all these turn arounds like telling you to turn back and then, if you survive past that point the road runs out of pavement. Luckily, we turned around to avoid the tragic ending however if we had kept going I believe we would have found crazy people and a deserted cabin.

That deer in the headlights look.

I was happy this morning. But then I remembered the age old tradition of anything that can go wrong will go wrong on the week before my birthday. People laugh at me and think that I am crazy but I can honestly attest some of the worst weeks of my life have come right before my birthday. I guess that I am just unlucky like that. Last year, my horse died, the year before that, my dog got ran over, the year before that, I had so many things going on that it isn't even funny! I think that it has always been like that and probably always will. Im used to it. That is why the week before my birthday I am a bit of a grouch. Okay, maybe more than a bit. A TOTAL. so, I preface this warning with a disclaimer.I am issuing a blanket apology to be put into effect from tomorrow until next Wednesday (my birthday). It's like knowing that storm clouds are on the horizon and trying to plan ahead...

So anyways... lets see here!..... Happy thoughts.....

My mom called me last night and said that she thought I needed to buy vegetable seeds and attempt to grow a garden. Not because the fruits and veggies might improve my health but because of all the political unrest that has been going on in the middle east. At first I laughed her off. But then I started thinking about it. A shortage in fuel means the cost of EVERYTHING else is going to go up... After a couple more thoughts I really began thinking that she was wise in the analysis. So, yes. I am going to attempt to plant a garden. If anyone knows anything regarding tillers, fertilizing, or plants I would be forever grateful. I'm thinking, Tomatoes, Corn, Pumpkins, Squash, and maybe even some green beans. I mean at the very least I wont have to buy those things from the store.... OH... maybe even watermelon. I even thought about investing in some wheat, oats, and corn to keep in storage. I mean. I know, I might sound crazy, but then again, it would be a nice cushion to have just in case and to be quite honest having a garden doesn't have to be as difficult as it was when I was a child...I remember Me, Zach, Brooke, and Nicole carrying buckets of water from the creek to water everything. THAT WAS PROBABLY THE MOST MISERABLE CHILDHOOD MEMORY I HAVE! But, now I know the value of a garden hose! =)

So I think that is enough musing for now. I forgot headphones today so I am sitting in the cafeteria listening to everyone else converse.... Oh what fun!

Frustrated.

I know that this post is going to seem more like a pity party than anything but I need to write it down. So I can get it all out. Last week was probibly the hardest week I have had in a LONG time. I was alone Monday, Tuesday, Thursday, and all day Saturday. I finally thought that things would be going back to normal today but instead I am home alone again. Yes. It angers me. I feel that I have pulled more than my half lately. The thing that get's me is that he is not even doing all of this for a job. Its a hobby. So, he gets to run off and leave me here alone. I know that this sounds selfish and messed up but he never does the evening routine without me. I am always here. I scheduled my classes so that I was in school when the house was empty and now, here I am, because of no fault of my own I am responsible for everything. Chasing this dream better be worth it. Don't get me wrong. I am happy that he has aspirations and dreams but sometimes I wish that instead of jumping in feet first he would wade in and test the waters. Instead of telling me that I was responsible for the whole evening he would ask. I mean two days a week is fine but four is overwhelming. I know that a firefighters wife has responsibilities but this is excessive.I mean C.P.R. on Valentines Day? Class scheduled for my birthday weekend so we cannot go anywhere? That's asking allot from any woman. Not to mention our job is a 24 hour job. It's not like I am home alone with a t.v., remote, and lean cuisine meal. I have other responsibilities... I mean I think that he has been home alone one time in the last month and even that time I got four phone calls.

Now, let me disclaimer all this with the following: I love our job. I would not trade it for the world. Ditto with the Husband. I love him. I really do. I just needed to vent some feelings. That way when he comes home I won't blow like a volcano. It's easier this way because I can reason with myself and bring myself back from the edge of anger. This doesn't mean I'm going crazy or this doesn't mean that I need a break. It just means I feel unappreciated.

Wow. I feel better already.

Quiet.

So, it's ten thirty in my house and rather than the music that I have playing it is quiet as a tomb. I know, hard to believe considering all the hectic activity that usually surrounds us. Not that I wouldn't much rather wake up to the same old same old but this is a nice change of pace. So is the recent change in the weather. I love having the windows opened up and the breeze blowing in. I really like it. Maybe its because it reminds me of growing up and laying in bed for the good part of a lazy day reading a book. The only thing that could ruin it would be the wasps that invaded my room. I am almost happy that these days there are no wasps to worry about =).

So, I dont know what I am going to do after I graduate. Its going to be so weird not traveling to Blue Ridge every Tuesday and Thursday morning. Or taking classes all summer long! What am I going to do with myself? Since I couldnt figure it out I am going to make a summer list right now so I have goals

1. go to the pool with all of my nieces and nephews.

2. myrtle beach;)

3. Go eat ice cream somewhere outside

4.Get a mani and a pedi with some other female ( i hate going alone)

5. Read at least ten books because I WANT TO. not because they will be good for work or school but because I have not enjoyed reading a book in forever.

6. Photograph at least 100 different shots that I am thrilled with.

7. Go to a concert

8. Busch Gardens!!!

9.Loose 10 lbs.....

10. Paint a sign for the outside of my house

11. Finish my cross stich sampler.

12.Go to the Grand Caverns

13. Sleep on the beach in a hammock

14. Go on a date with my husband.

There it is. 14 things. But they seem so hard....... I think I can do it. Okay. Enough day dreaming about summer... Spring is eyeballing me. As is my 21st birthday...

Wow. Two posts in two days...

One thing I think that I have learned is never judge a book by its cover or, furthermore, by its previous chapters. Well of course I am talking about people. I have a tendency to label people (i.e geek, stalker, prep, jock, etc. etc.) I know I know I am wrong for doing it but I can't help it. The one kind of person that drives me insane is the one that cosmically tries to one up everyone. Doesn't matter what it is they one up you. Maybe it is me, Maybe I am stupid and do not understand... It is just hard to really be okay with it. I am not talking to the person that has everything. I am totally okay with that. I am talking about the person that goes the extra mile to degrade what you have, even if it totally kicks their things butt and go on to promote whatever it is that they find themselves with. I know, I know this sounds like a jealous rage but honestly, it's not. I really do not have one thing that sets me over the top. I think it is just a subtle combination. I don't know.

So, rather than that there is not much else going on in the mundane life. We have another inspection tomorrow and I feel confident that we will pass it fine. I really enjoy doing the job that we do and the company that we work with is amazing. I really like this job. It may be overwhelming at sometimes and Tuesday and Thursday's find me alone, watching television, waiting on Cody to return home. Firefighter 1 is a good class for him. It makes him one step closer to realizing his dream and this job, that we have, allows for him to have that dream. I love life sometimes. Everything seems to work out for the greater good.

I never thought I would be able to be comfortable in Waynesboro and I was really nervous. But it is so funny. Somehow, I have found home.

Time for another Blog.

Sorry it has been so long since I have blogged! I have been extremely busy. As a matter of fact I feel like this is the first day since Saturday I have been able to get anything that I want to accomplished. 87 more days until I graduate brcc though =) I can do this!

So, for those of you that do not know we bought a Jeep! Very excited about this. It feels nice to own a good looking vehicle that you are not ashamed to drive around in. The husband loves it. Yesterday though I think that he was ready to shoot a State Inspector. This ridiculous man kept saying that the headlights were not bright enough and that he even had a machine to test this. Then, Cody came home and cleaned the lenses really good and the man said they would not pass again. Has anyone ever heard of a candlewatt machine? I know that I certainly have not. So, were going to the coop to get it inspected today from someone who actually knows what their doing and are not a complete and total idiot. I suggest anyone in Waynesboro stay far far away from R and M as all that they do is try to get more money out of you and are lazy.

With Cody buying the Jeep that leaves a new vehicle for me to be bought. I know that you think this is crazy but I really want a New Beetle to jet around in. They are cute, 5 speeds, and get great gas millage. The only problem that I am really having is that Cody does not want me to buy a green or a yellow one. I think that he would be really embarrassed to ride in one of those. So I have been trying to look at Silver and black ones. It is really hard though when that mint green is calling your name! I do not know what I will end up with but I will be thankful to have a good running car. The Gold Cirrus has done me well but it deserves retirement. We will probably keep it as a back up car but rather than that I am ready to drive something different.

So, rather than that I am trying to think of any other updates I need to put in this extremely long post....

I think that my car musings will be enough for now =)

School

So, I finally found a math that I am good at. Of course I would find it when I am graduating soon and it is the last math class I will ever have to take. That kind of stinks.

So today I am attempting to make a diaper cake for a close cousin of mine. We'll see if I can accomplish this. I have watched numerous YouTube videos and I think that I have it down pat. We will see though. I am semi worried about it.